I don’t know if it’s normal for people my age to feel the stress and pressure as they reach the point of their life wherein they want to start establishing themselves. At my mid 20’s (yes I’m in my mid 20’s, lowest digit of the bracket to be exact) i have a lot of things in my mind; it’s a mess, a clutter that will take me forever to organize. I’m an Aquarian and i was never really the orderly type, I’m a procrastinator who has great visions but is having a hard time with the execution. Since I’m passionate and i always feel the time and life ahead of me, sometimes i forget to drive on my track; to go in the direction i want to take.
I also don’t know if it’s the weather that is making me feel gloomy and sad. It’s raining outside, as they say, people tend to feel blue when it rains or maybe because it’s the time of the month, the time when girls are more sensitive and emotional. I don’t know. I just woke up feeling lonely and incomplete. I feel the emptiness; i want to be somewhere else, somewhere far from where i am right now, I want to do something else, something different from what I’m doing right now. But i couldn’t organize myself; i don’t know what to do or how to prioritize my plans. I was the achiever back then, i make things happen, my spirit is high and i always do things with optimism. Right now, i became idle. I’m looking at the red traffic light above. And it alarms me. I’m chasing a dream. I have always been. For me, it has always been a battle between my lifelong dream and the present situation. I don’t know if i would pursue the thing i want most because there are a lot of hindrances. Circumstances make it hard to reach. I don’t know if i would work and grow on what i have right now because probably, this is life’s on way of telling me that i am supposed to be here, that the dream that I’ve always wanted will just remain as my childhood fantasy. Perhaps this is a test i must get through to remind myself who am i and where i want to be. The world can always shake me; people around me can always influence me, but i know my heart, as long as a live according to what it beats, I’ll always be on the right track.
Good thing i have someone, someone who always makes everything alright. Someone who will always be there to support and smile for me in whatever directions i take.
Shall i call this the mid 20’s crisis?
I also don’t know if it’s the weather that is making me feel gloomy and sad. It’s raining outside, as they say, people tend to feel blue when it rains or maybe because it’s the time of the month, the time when girls are more sensitive and emotional. I don’t know. I just woke up feeling lonely and incomplete. I feel the emptiness; i want to be somewhere else, somewhere far from where i am right now, I want to do something else, something different from what I’m doing right now. But i couldn’t organize myself; i don’t know what to do or how to prioritize my plans. I was the achiever back then, i make things happen, my spirit is high and i always do things with optimism. Right now, i became idle. I’m looking at the red traffic light above. And it alarms me. I’m chasing a dream. I have always been. For me, it has always been a battle between my lifelong dream and the present situation. I don’t know if i would pursue the thing i want most because there are a lot of hindrances. Circumstances make it hard to reach. I don’t know if i would work and grow on what i have right now because probably, this is life’s on way of telling me that i am supposed to be here, that the dream that I’ve always wanted will just remain as my childhood fantasy. Perhaps this is a test i must get through to remind myself who am i and where i want to be. The world can always shake me; people around me can always influence me, but i know my heart, as long as a live according to what it beats, I’ll always be on the right track.
Good thing i have someone, someone who always makes everything alright. Someone who will always be there to support and smile for me in whatever directions i take.
Shall i call this the mid 20’s crisis?
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